This sounds a tad dramatic, but this summer is something akin to the last opportunity. Two months to spend on studying as opposed to produce results, or as my ever-helpful office mate says, to solidify one's foundations. Of course I'm studying about all the things I should have done in college and grad school, but then I was probably alternately in and out of love and stressing. Result? Nothing remained in head. So this is the time to have another go. Will it work this time? Will it stay? Will I cease to feel inadequate? I jolly well hope so.